Monday, February 1, 2010

Lost My Way

Really quite long time i didn't update my blog
Lately i really quite often to club
i do ask myself y i suddenly so often club, end up i get the answer
I'mEMO!!!!
hmm....some of my clubbing "leg" say tat is a excuse only....haha
hmm...yea...maybe...i admit I'm one of the "leg" of club oso
so??? like to club doesn't means is a bad girl rite???
i jus really enjoy the music, environment and the party moment wif my fren
well~~~ok...this is actually not a topic tat i wan to blog now
back to my topic

Work for Dream or Work for Money?
stay or go???
Am i really enjoy in wat i'm doing rite now?
If i really decide to go for dream, will i regret?
Izit only 2 choice for me?Carpet and Interior Design?Nothings else?

Recently i keep on asking myself this few question .
what i really wan!!!!
when i can almost see that dream i'm dreaming
but there's a voice inside my head saying u'll never reach it!!!
Life is not tat easy as u think
Every step i'm taking now, Every move I make feels
Lost with no direction
My faith is shaking
But i gotta keep trying
Gotta keep my head held high
There's always got another chance
I'm always gonna wanna make it move
but how come, i just really so not dare to move forward!!??
I'm totally fresh in social and working.
This is my 1st company and oso my only one full time job.
I never go for any other company work before
and never try for other job before
except freelance model and those par-time job
so i have no idea how's other company work?
Izit more worst than my company ? or better?
Before start my full time job, all my part-time job is work under without any pressure
all is easy and relax job-sore with high payment
tat's y i cant tahan what the work i do now....!!!
i know i cant work as freelance forever.
i know there is still got a lot of things is waiting me to learn
but then i have to decide what the things i wan to learn
learn the things tat i like
or
learn the things tat can make more money??
go for carpet sales sure can get more money??
then how about design??
Design cant get to make more money??
can someone give a the answer????
damn it..i just hate myself..how come confuse for so long d...
but stil keep turn round insides the circle,
cant get out from the circle
argh.....i hope to have a long vacation to think it clearly....
i hope to club now
only club moment can make me temporary stop thinking all this
i miss clubbing moment, seriously i jus like it and enjoy it.
God Bless me....
hope i can make a right decision and go back my way.
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Sunday, November 15, 2009

Because i'm a girl

I just cant understand the hearts of men
they tell you they want you and then they leave you
this is the first time, you're special
I believed those words and I was so happy


you should have told me you didn't like me any more
but I couldn't see that and you just rushed me
although I will curse you I'll still miss you
since I am a girl, to whom love is everything

you should have told me you didn't like me any more
but I couldn't see that and you just rushed me
although I will curse you I'll still miss you
since I am a girl, to whom love is everything

i heard that if you give up things too easily
to a man, he will get bored with you
i don't think this is wrong
a girl says that she will never be fooled again
but she will fall in love again

you should have told me you didn't like me any more
but I couldn't see that and you just rushed me
although I will curse you I'll still miss you
since I am a girl, to whom love is everything

Hey babe
the pain
it's not enough to describe how i feel
we were so happy together
but I know now
I've been blind
you told me that you'd never let me down
whenever I needed you you'd always be here
I can forgive but I cant forget
even though you hurt me
I still love you
I still love you

don't take advantage of a girl's willingness to do anything for love
and her caring instinct
i didn't know that to be born as a girl and to be loved was so hard
although i will curse you i'll still miss you
since i am a girl, to whom love is everything
although i will curse you i'll still miss you
since i am a girl, to whom love is everything



http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=wFSGBBNmbIc

The Birthday month - October

October was a birthday month for me,y say so?
Most of my best fren birthday at october @@
of cuz i'm one of them oso...
ytrsday ur birthday, tonite my birthday, tml her birthday
almost everyday is our birthday celebration =.="
so wat is the end of the result of so many celebration???
answer is bank-rap!!!!
get lot birthday's present but spend lot for birthday's present too...
but v enjoy n happy with tat....XD

Let pic to story out our october crazy birthday celebration ^^

JuanLow's birthday

i bring them to highway cafe having steak as our dinner,
i think that is supper because is around 11 somethings already...@@


Juan's birthday ice cream cake ^^ special order for him
his special birthday's candle too ^^

he feel weird while he wan cut his ice cream cake XD

Second round...whr to go???Zouk...let's party


the birthday's boy

not really having fun at Zouk....because techno song for whole nite....
tat is not my song...i prefer R&B ^^....
so v decide change location to JuanLow's pub...

act like a DJ...but they say i'm CJ (ceresJoey)XD

My Beloved Dolphin's birthday

the day before my birthday's party...
Siew Mum (Dolphin) my super best beloved fren....
our frenship start from kinder-garden
v grown together, school together, play together,
lunch together after school n continue our tuition class.
i dunno how u think, but honestly
u'r the special one for me, no one can replace u from my childhood's memory
Happy 21st birthday to u my beloved Siew Mun ^^

wat i doing? i look like wan kissing her XD


My Big Date ^^

finally my turn to celebrate my birthday's party
thx kian tat n loon tik specially visit me during my lunch time

1st round celebration wif my colleague
Steamboat buffer






Second round - Home party
dear all my beloved family and fren, thanks for coming my birthday party


really thanks for coming n wait so long for my cake from melacca..
specially thanks SIN so far away bring me the cake...
that's a special cake for me ^^
love u guys
今年过了一个很不同的生日, 虽然身边很多朋友陪我庆祝 可是怎么了? 我的内心还是孤单的. 我要的他却不能陪我度过 祝福我的生日愿望会实现 希望明年生日 那个他会陪我度过

Kuan's birthday
head to puchong neway celebrate my colleague Kuan's birthday
after few cup of beer, all of them start get drunk n high.
1st time saw their different face
in office...they all very serious look but after get high all the real face come out.
shock me..!!!!! surprise me !!!
anyway, at last we all having a happy moment and enjoy wif it .

starting, all look so normal...




start get high
Wong start get high and see what he did for the birthday's boy?? rape him XD pity kwan

i try to rape him XD Kimmy Birthday's celebration
Head to Lot 10 celebrate kimmy's birthday and chicken gang gathering, since Leo leave till now v never meet each other for so long....

Chicken gang


the birthday's babe Kimmy
the mashimaro jet jet^^love u guys...the chicken gang

Sunday, October 11, 2009

busy life

Almost more than one month i didnt update my blog.....
Lately i was busy on my project, job , pageant and photo-shooting...
let pic story wat i done in tis month...

DAY WIF RAYNOR

He bring me to ampang visit those pity doggie...
we help to clean up the doggie n feed all the doggie thr

wat raynor doing?? XD
tis dog look like my fren rinka's dog

tis is cute....




after that v hang to ampang liong tao fu......
thanks raynor for bring me out.....
i noe he jus wan to make my mood pretty....thanks so much yea^^


OLYMPUS ROADSHOW


Got 3 day olympus job at lowyat. Grad to get some new fren thr...
n thx Max visit me n help me took some nice pic.....

Picture time while rest time....







Thx jonanthan visit me for dinner...n checki time...^^
more picture pls visit my facebook ^^


GRANDMUM'S HOUSE VISIT MY NEW COUSIN BRO
After start working, oledi long time nvr go bac my grandmun's house...
miss all my cousin and of cos the delicious seafood so much ^^
tis time the main point v going bac is visit our new cousin bro
wake up at the early morning 8 smth...
head to klang hving bak ku teh as breakfast wif my family....
then back to grandmum hse...

My new cousin bro...c how cute he is...^^

handsome boy?
around 7 smth dinner time ^^...miss those seafood so much

Evening view of the place...



my soh poh cousin sis "sue anne"gosh...gonna gain my weight again...c so much things on the day...T.T



SHOOTING DAY WIF JANE KWAN AT NIKONIAN ACADEMY
I went home dec fair wif JON......visit my girl which is working for Nippon Paint.
Around 5 smth i need rush to kota damansara for photo-shooting....
but around tat time KL was kinda traffiic jam....
so i make up while driving, got ppl keep look at me XD...
Around 7 only i arrived...lucky they all stil setting the lighting....
and sorry for late....
around 7 smth start the shoot...

Me and Babe Jane


personal i like tis...sweet

they like my wild look so much =.="
like tis oso ^^....got feel...
Jane in cheong sam

they say v look like Lesbian in tis pic =.="come some random hp pic



After the photoshoot around 11pm v head to station one for dinner...
Damn hungry and tired...somemore...argue wif someone...damn ugly mood...
The next day stil need head to kepong join bosco real assistant pageant 09

more pic in facebook....



BOSCO REAL ASSISTANT PAGEANT 09
Go kepong aman puri station one for bosco real assistant pageant.
meet some old schoolmate thr

backstage pic

Shinet wif ME
my partner
old schoolmate

old schoolmate...she become too pretty i cant recognize her

all the consultant
The Semi finalist
myselfyeah..finally i in the semi finalist....but scare too..becoz semi final need to preform....i hv no idea wat talent i hv to preform >.< die =".="" style="font-weight: bold;">